Isaiah 44:22, “I have wiped out your wrongdoings like a thick cloud And your sins like a heavy mist. Return to Me, for I have redeemed you.”
One of the first things those God has given a rebirth will invariably experience a collapse under the heavy weight of sins they have accumulated. Without this collapse, the sinner either deceived themselves or were deceived by another. For the first time, you will realize and fully understand what a sinner is, and indeed it is you who looks in the mirror.
In December of 2010, I experienced this collapse under the weight of my sins and didn’t realize the symbol God sent to signify this until just recently. On December 18, 2010, I posted some photographs of a major cataclysmic event which happened the night before. My back porch had collapsed under the weight of heavy snow. It was around 2:00 AM, when I heard the crash, the whole house shook like an earthquake as it awakened me and probably my neighbors. I didn’t investigate the damage until the sun arose, and discovered it was a total loss.
Now the day after this, December 19, 2010 was when God opened my eyes to His Scripture for the very first time in my life. Reading the first Chapter of the Gospel of Mark, the words were literally bouncing off the page and into my heart. I was asking myself “why didn’t you see this before?”.
I didn’t honestly realize the depth of my wickedness at the point in time, probably I would say a month later when I read and studied the crucifixion of Jesus is when I realized the tremendous weight of my sin. I literally collapsed under that weight just like my porch did under the heavy weight of the snow. A cataclysmic event in my life.
Romans 6:4 Therefore we have been buried with Him through baptism into death, so that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, so we too may walk in newness of life.
You see, if you don’t understand this weight of sin you carry, you will NEVER understand the absolute need for a Savior. And when that collapse happens as you realize your very sins were imputed to Jesus Christ on the Cross, you then see Him picking you up out of the rubble and destruction which occurred. Before this point you were literally BURIED under your sins, and in my case I didn’t realize it until God gave me a second birth!
Now literally over 10 years later, I see God sending me a literal example of what was going to transpire. The collapse under my sin weight was coming. I would be saved, redeemed by Jesus Christ!
If you haven’t collapsed under that sheer weight of sin, I would suspect you are still empty, still trying to claim a faith which comes and goes under a religion. Those who have been saved, naturally repent of sin, knowing full well WHO pulled them out of the twisted rubble, it was Jesus Christ alone. You realize you didn’t pull yourself out and there is no way you could have! Or in other words, you understand that you could never save yourself by ANYTHING you do or say!
Before salvation, you see yourself as a good person, there is NO weight of sin experienced. Sure, you might feel guilty at some bad things you have done, but overall you don’t feel the real weight of it because you really don’t fear God. It is by the second birth is when God shows you His eternal holiness in the person and work of Jesus Christ, that is when the weight of sin is realized! Before that point, you will always believe you are a strong porch that has really no snow on top of it.
2 Corinthians 9:15 Thanks be to God for His indescribable gift!
And God willing, He collapses or has collapsed you under that weight of sin so that you see your Savior Jesus Christ.